no i havent tried to get help its too much for me to handle talking about everything just thinking about it all i have a melt down and i dont wanna be like them but i just cant help it at this point. i am completely alone out here. no family no true friends and the people i hang out with all they do is go to bars and drink. i know its not enough but i atleast wont drive i refuse to risk anyones life. i just wish i did have someone to vent all my past too and hopefully it wouldnt hurt so bad now.