YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE AND PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP! I was in your position not long ago. I don't mean to scare you, but I lost my house and now I am homeless. I lost everything, sold all the furniture and appliances, but if you have a laptop with built in wireless, keep it! It will be your lifeline. I am sitting in a McDonald's, they have free wi-fi. You can find other hot spots like starbucks, hospitals, some banks. You sometimes can sit in the parking lots of these places and pick up their signal. Libraries are a good place to go. Please don't give up, I was absolutely suicidal when I lost my house, but I found agencies in my county that can help me. I started with my Community Mental Health dept and went from there. Now I'm in the process of obtaining housing and probably will have a place by Nov. Don't give up, persevere, we want you to stay here at PC! I'm here if you need some advice on getting services to help you, I did it, so can you, I'm praying for you. Good luck!