often i cant cry, even when it is necessary , often even if i am on the verge of suicide, no tears.....i think maybe i cant cry for myself anymore.....i cant cry for anyones pain...too much pain has made me empty....so empty i just cant take it...i sit here with tears in my eyes, actual tears and i dont know what to do, i need help...i want to die again and it is so hard.....i have my plan for my death, ive had it worked out for a long time and thought so many times and have been close to putting those plans in action...i am so terribly gone and have been since my teens...i was desperate then for release and always thought i would kill myself someday.......its hard and i lost so many people and myself and at times i think of them all and want to die , i want to get away from the pain....i am already dead, i died ten years ago, and i have been the walking dead since, slowly losing everything about myself.....no love.....i have no arms of comfort to hug me, and i just cant remember what it feels like.....so i am in the support chat room right now..........i dont want to die, but i do...help me please...