@MSUBeau7 I am specifically depressed about everything. To be honest. My life, as a whole, is a shithole.

@Rohag it doesn't really matter how much digging I did. I'm the one in the hole. I don't have to motivation to climb out. Everything is just so complicated. I've been sitting here, eating only goldfish for 3 days. I don't have to balls to commit suicide. None of my friends notice I am depressed. Which makes me more depressed. I lie to them all about everything trying to hide it... I fool everybody except myself, when I look in the mirror I see somebody I HATE. It's not even dislike. I honestly cannot stand myself. If I weren't me. I'd punch myself.