Awwwww. Huge Huggles to you, Chris.
(I'm a little late in seeing this...sorries).

You know....Considering that you're such a master with your camera, have you ever considered mayyyybe joining some sort of photography group-like dealie, (either online or...not), and perhaps you just may bump into someone of the female persuasion who shares a common interest with you? Never know what may ..... develop.....

You think that might work?

I'm really sorry you're feeling so frustrated. Wish there were something I could do for joo....Pm me anytime.

Hang in there....

Shangrala