MMF: I am so sorry for what you are going through. You sound like an extremely sensitive person and you deserve a relationship with someone who can appreciate you. I think Zen has given a lot of good advice. Think back to why you married your wife and try to determine why she is acting the way she is now. If she is angry a lot of the time, that anger must stem from somewhere. Is she insecure? If so, maybe you can try to help her gain confidence and that could help your relationship. I am very lucky to be best friends with my husband. I could not even imagine being in a relationship that did not have closeness. In the meantime, if you do seek a relationship with another woman, try to keep it as just friends so you can really evaluate your marriage and definitely think about seeing a therapist so there is someone you can confide in.