I'm just interested in knowing if anyone else ever feels "uncomfortable" being happy? Almost like you don't belong in the feeling? Like you're an imposter playing a role, pretending to feel contentment with what everyone else seems to find worthwhile and meaningful? And then the second you're depressed again, while you don't necessarily "want" to feel this way, once back, it's almost like a sense of, "Ahh.... now THIS feels right." ?