Holder....your poetry shows a very talented and beautiful side of you. I know most posting on this site don't get much feed back or appreciation, but that doesn't mean people aren't reading it and appreciating it. Take one day at a time for now, and focus on helping yourself to feel a little better each day. I know how you are feeling, I have a rant I am about to post and much of it is the same way. Only difference you are still young, while I am heading for old age fast. Until you can feel someone holding you in their arms, feel the love here people have for. All you have to do is reach out and ask for it. Peace my friend.