both of ours

I just want my life back

it is too traumatic for me every time my kids come and go

and I miss everything but the abuse about the life I had

my father yells at me and promises me that i will never be well if I go back to him and that once I let him go and get rid of him in my mind and stop wanting to go back I will be fine

but then my ex says all these things to convince me otherwise, his mother keeps calling me, his sister, and they were mean to me as well, and I just can't take it

I am just so confused