I feel no one understands really. And I cannot help myself anymore. So I need to be helped. I have tried everything ever suggested and worked so hard but I keep getting worse. I cannot try anymore because I feel like something bad is going to happen and I am in a state of severe anxiety every second and complete depression.

I can't believe I have to live every day with impending doom, sadness, missing my past and dreading aging and dying and not enjoying a single moment even with my children.

I function through my fears and do things even though I am terrified I may die if I do them for the past two years I have

but now the feeling has intensified greatly and I just have lost all hope now of feeling any peace ever