Ok, this is what is going on in my head and making me do stupid things like push away my T.
I have this little girl inside of me who is really trying to get noticed but she was locked up for so long that she will pop her head out, get scared and then run back inside.
In the meantime, she is leaving me to clean up the little messes she is making.
I understand she is afraid to fully come out and surface for fear of total abandonment, for fear of being laughed at.
But, for me...she is starting to make me look like I am the crazy one. And then that pisses me off and it totally complicates everything in my head.