I've always had depression, and I've dissociated before and have felt numb before, but just recently the man who I feel is the most amazing person in my life, and the one I still love, stopped talking to me. He has his reasons and I understand, so I don't want to say much more on the matter, or else I'll feel even worse.

I'm not on medication. I used to be afraid of taking them, because I already take a lot of allergy medicine, and would have to take medicine for anxiety and OCD along with depression, so I'm scared of all those medicines coming together.

I don't have a therapist. I used to, but my family started having really bad financial problems, so now I don't.