Day seven? It has been a week since my ex and I took a timeout. It looks like that time out has turned into a permanent thing. I have noticed my mood has gotten alot calmer, and I have been getting more accomplished, now that i expend less energy on relationship drama/ I also notice that I feel a little sad and empty, perhaps because all that drama was filling up a pretty big void. But, I also have drawn away a bit from my little AA social group. They only go to the same five meetings every week (all the other ones aren't "strict" enough they say). And this bothers me somewhat. So, I have begun going to meetings on my own that are of my own choosing. Gasp! Could it be that I am making mature. independent decisions about what is right for me? Progress!
I still miss my ex ALOT!! I feel stupid posting, but it is 330am and I am at work, and I know that he is probably just getting home and this is when we always used to text each other all night. So, yeah, it doesn't take much for me to have a weak moment. sad but true. so, now enough of me. i am going to read some posts, get out of my own way, and maybe help somebody else.