I've always been really clumsy. To this day when I awkwardly try to do something I hear my dad yelling "you clumsy ox". In school I was always the odd one out, the one with no friends, the last picked for teams in PE. This stuff stays with us, well into adulthood. I am still pretty much friendless and awkward...extremely shy, so at my church gatherings I get ignored. I guess I'm saying that you're obviously not stupid, but it is hard to get rid of those old tapes...isn't it?