(((BNLsMom)))
He is so not worth the anguish you are going through. It pisses me off for your sake that he has dragged you down. I'm so sorry you are have to fight so hard over this. Is there any way you can call your T for extra support. Hang in there tight and don't let go. Don't let him get the best of you. If the self harm thoughts continue seek help. Don't want nothing bad happening to you.