This how I learned to trust, how will you? That is the question but it can be done!

This story of Kelva the Foster Cat.
Summer of 2008-Kelva and her crew arrived at my home over a few days as they had to trap them. At first I was told there was to be a mother and 2 kittens, as the kind women that was feeding them under her deck, was to adopt 2 of her kittens. As it turned out she discovered allergies, so I ended up with 4 kittens and one very sick mother cat. The foundation names the mothers and I named the kittens. Already a handful at 8-10 weeks old.
Kelva almost did not survive but a few vet trips and antibiotics with good food she recovered.

I am greatful for the long lasting shot of antibiotics as she would not take any attention in the way of a pill or liquid antibiotics.

At one point I was medicating the kittens Baby Face, Diamond Jim, Don Cherry and Coco Chanel. Coco let out a distress call, and I looked up to see Kelva two feet away looking at me with the look that I translated into: "Which eye so you want to keep?"

For many weeks I had to keep a kitten between her and myself when I was in the foster room.
Roll forward to the summer of 2009, my family doctor was treating my depression. I showed up one day with some reference material, and not that my Doc is not open to discussion, but she saw in me my lack of trust and told me so.

I went home after that appoinment and was floored, could only lay on the floor with my legs up, blanket and box of kleenx as I could not see myself trusting enough to let my doctor treat me. Not possible. I was lost and felt I would not survive the depression or the day. Finally crawled into bed and slept.

I woke up the next morning with a weight on my chest that was purring and it did not sound like my own cats.
Slowly I opened one eye. It was Kelva! Opened both eyes and she did not move. Slowly brought one hand out from under the covers and she did not move! Tried petting her back, she stayed! I started crying quietly, as I realized:
- If an animal can learn to trust so should a human animal-myself!
I was in awe of this awareness and the hope I received from Kelva the foster cat that morning.

In order not to spoil the moment I waited until she wanted to leave, until that day she sleep at the foot end of the bed. I had to ignore my bladder if I moved it could be perceived as a threat and risk reducing her trust.

When all was said and done, it was a turning point for me and her.
Everthing we need to know is inside us, we just need to experience life to bring it to the surface.
All the best to everyone with trust issues.