I have cried rivers. Many many rivers. Tears cleanse the soul they release pain hurt anquish anger cry your heart out. I put a towel on my pillow and let go. Towel gets all gross but eventually the tears subside for a moment. If the welbutrin(that's what you are on right?) isn't working for you there are many other choices. Feeling like a drone isn't what you want either. It will be baby steps. And one step forward two step back feeling too. Keep posting to let things out. Sometimes that is great therapy.