Petunia, you will of course know the situation better than me. What I mean is that we all feel invincible. Sort of like we all know to run out on a road could mean being hit by a car, but we never really know that that car could really hit us. So, we take chances. We think it wont happen to us. We think we are different because we never really know our own mortality or just how fragile that it. If your brothers had know they would die Im sure they would have stopped but they may have been like the rest of us and felt that it would never really happen to them. In the end it doesnt really mater cos you are left with the pain of it all and that is the real tragety here. You are left suffering and missing two of the most important people in your life and I want to say that I hear you petunia. I really do and I wish there was a way to take it all away. Cos if i could I would.

Audrey