I have another question which i also hope does not offend. The rules of the forum state something to the extent that the host personality is responsible for the alters. You all seem to have a real grip on that. I have 0 consciousness of at least one alter. The others I am conscious of, i have 0 control over. Occasionally I can communicate, but only to get brief glimpses of a general feel of their mood and maybe a little bit of the why of their mood but that is such an abnormal thing, it almost never happens. Maybe it's me because i find the whole thing distasteful and silly. Yes, silly, even though it's real it seems very silly to me. I want as little to do with the other states as possible.

The only control I seem to have is right before the emergence I get a weird feeling and if that feeling hits I might be able to supress the emergence of the alter. That's it. If the alter emerges, it will sometimes allow a juxtaposition with either me or it being dominant but usually it's me watching it from the background with no control.

How can the host personality be responsible for the actions of the alters when the host has no control and often no memory ? Why do you all seem to be able to do this so well ?

Personally with myself I'm more concerned about the OCD problem, brain damage and forum rules. The alters have never really showed an interest in the internet...that i know of. But with all my various probs I have agreed to be monitored and edited by a moderator just in case. I don't have immediate posting right now. I'm trying to coax an alter to juxtapose and candycoat what i say, but frankly i don't like that idea. i'm trying to keep the alters at bay.

How do you all seem to keep control of your alters enough to be responsible for them ? I can't do it.