Lists sometimes worked in the past but right now I feel unable to make them. I have to make a train journey tomorrow though and that might give me the space I need.
There's a stupid part of me that is scared to take those steps to do the things I need to. No reason, just overwhelmed - feel I can't cope with doing any more, I guess.
My pastor's wife said I need to delegate but I'm scared to - scared I will seem lazy for not doing it myself. I have this need to make everyone else's lives simpler but it has caught up with me.

I think I'm going to take myself to bed and take a sleeping tablet. Sadly I need to get up early tomorrow.

Caroline