You are a unique person, but your condition is not. We all have varying degrees and levels of pain and anguish, and I am so sorry to hear you are hurting. If I could I would take on your burden of pain, but please don't give up! Believe me, your condition is not unique, there is help for you, and people here want the very best for you! Persevere my friend, don't stop searching. I am here to listen, stop by anytime. Good luck!