It sounds like PTSD from my personal experience. I understand the fear, the uncertainty, everything. I want to talk to people, but I am afraid to. I barely have any friends. My closest friend is someone I see at the gym; she and I are a lot alike, but she is older. I have her email address, but not her phone number, so in a way its like I have no friends. Having PTSD does that to us. It makes relationships of any kind hard for us to have. Life becomes difficult to understand and tolerate, and we don't don't always know how to express. Keep posting, and keep your T--he sounds really nice. I like my T, too. He's really sweet.
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