today was a very hard day to get though...i am so depressed, i hadly got though work..i can't go on another day feeling like this...and the worse part of it all...it's like my whole life is flashing in my mind, and i see that i was always a failure at love...god in 55 years i have accoplised nothing and no=one...why can't i just turn a cornor, and everything i wished for would be there...i am totaly out of my mind right now...this is really making me feel so sick inside, that i cannoy function properly...i don't even feel the meds..what am i supposed to feel anyway ?...look guys i really am losing it and falling deeper into darkness ...i really do not want to continue living like this...i'm just so down...a real idiot i am....the fool is a perfect name for me because i am one....