hi AmDaws..i have all those feelings as well...i have gone through alot of crap.....i dont know the answer ... but why i am commenting is because i just read both your posts and you do the exact same thing as i do...i will write (or say ) something and then a little while later regret it , like you should have never written it...i end up feeling very stupid...but i hope you do not feel bad because these are real feelings and if we dont ask questions(even if only to our selves sometimes) than we will never acknowledge it and drive ourselves mad or continue the same pattern...i dont know,,but i hope you are feeling better...i do wonder about how one can feel so distraught and verbalize(or write)something then a bit later want to take it all back tho...