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Originally Posted by Perna
Eventually, with school, I had to remind myself that it was just the "next step" the next paper or test, I didn't have to "graduate" tomorrow and figure out the rest of my life, I just had to study for the next little bit. It took a long time but I was able to quite worrying about the end of the course, the final exam and how hard the work looked for the end of the course, etc. when I was only starting or in the middle. Keep breaking stuff down and it might not make you quite so anxious?
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Hi Perna,
Thank you, I found this very helpful.
I think I also did not realize that the depression has made me more of a perfectionist. If I can't do it perfectly, then forget it. Right now I'm studying chemistry and it has so many parts. Don't get me wrong, they all seem rather interesting to me. That's the problem. I read one sentance in the book and I'm like, "oh, wait I don't know about that yet." Then I have to go read 2 chapters on something else, sometimes spending 2 hours on it. But at this rate the whole thing could take forever and I'm not too young. I also get down on myself because I feel that I slow the process way down. The only reason I'm doing this is to feel more secure in the class. But I seem to be both putting it off and drawing it out as long as possible. Then I just get down on myself and scold that it's beyond my reach so I shouldn't bother. Ugh. Just have to shut down the voices.
Anyway, thank you.