well ,no of course i dont...i have love for all people and believe there are reasons for everything about us,,even when u hear about people doing bad things i know that there was something in that persons life that made them feel bad inside to act out..i just dont feel like im worthy of having these messed up emotions..i should be stronger and be the rock for my family..if my emotions cause pain for anyone else than i feel like i do not deserve to have them,,i should be in control,i wish i couldnt feel or think or remember and see my life flashback all the time and always worry about tomorrow..i am tired of hurting