I need some advice. I had some memories come up this weekend and today. It is hard. My mom tried to kill me when I was very young. She was a mean spiteful woman, jealous of anything that did not center on her.

I look very much like my mother and people I know...family & old friends.... are always saying how I look like her or am strong like her, etc. It makes me very ill.

I have avoided the mirror for years. I never look directly at my face in a mirror. I may chk my hair and then leave out of the bathroom.

Tonight I triggered myself I was getting a Q-Tip to put some Neosporin on my husband's hand. I did not mean to look in the mirror and was not ready to see my face. I instantly became dizzy and almost fell. My head started hurting, too.

Does anyone else have a problem with this type of thing? If so, how do you deal with it? I cannot go the rest of my life without using the mirror. And what if I accidently see my face without mentally preparing for it, again?

Any help would be greatly aprreciated. Thanks in advance.