Yack,
I read your post and there could be something in there that I could offer you support for from my perspective.
You wrote,[...where to begin...how...life in chaos...feel...lost...horrible feeling...emotionally drained...January 2005...]
In reading your post, the date of January 2005 is when this started. May 2005,spent 3 months...non-functional... started X (benzodiazapine)
Currently on K (bezodiazapine)...don't know what to do...].
In following the chronology, the {3 months non-functional} came before the X.. Is that correct?
If so, the X did not cause the disfunctional condition.
However, the new BZD, Klonopin, is a chemical cousin of Xanax. Both are the type of benzodiazapines that have the potential to cause withdrawal symptoms that could be like what you describe that you are having. However, if you are taking K now, then withdrawal is not likely but there are cases where withdrawal type symptoms occur while taking the drug and you mention recommended discontinuation.
If I was to help you, I could offer some education concerning BZD. If you find out from the professionals that you are seeing the bzd is at least a part of the cause of what you experiancing, I could offer you some help from my perspective because I have overcome a horrific withdrwal from BZD that I found myself in when I was prescribed K years ago.
Lou