I am so sorry for your loss.

Grieving process, pah. There's no flowchart for grieving. No two people are alike; no two "grieving processes" are the same. You can take those steps and shuffle them or take a couple steps out of the deck or add in a few new ones of your own. There's no timeline, either, by the way.

I wish I can say that everything will get better eventually, but the best I can do is to say that you'll somehow be able to manage. I did after my mother died, two years ago. She was only in her 50s and at the time the mantra went through my head: It's. Not. Fair. And today? IT'S. NOT. FAIR. When she died, it was like a cloud went over the sun, and the sun never came out again.

That said, if your grief is tearing apart your life, you're doing the right thing by discussing it with a professional. Without knowing your circumstances, I'd say that you will have to figure out how to make peace with the past and, at the same time, try to move forward. Big picture stuff--what do I want to do with my life? How can I maintain and stabilize my personal relationships? as well as the small stuff that will allow you to survive from dusk to dawn: what actions can I take when I'm feeling overwhelmed? What routines can I establish to give some structure to my daily life?

All the best-