Delusions don't have to be 'false'.
Someone could have the delusion that their partner is being unfaithful... That could drive their partner to be unfaithful... Their belief would be true... But delusional nonetheless...

But any way...

> People really do push me to kill myself sometimes. They don't mean to do it, but they do.

Here there is some insight... You think that other people push you to kill yourself. But then you also say that they don't intend to do this.

It might feel like others are 'pushing' you to it...
Someone could feel like their nagging wife 'pushes' them to hit her.

But of course... Other people can't make us do those kinds of things...

And like you say... Other people don't mean to do this.

I've taken a lot on anti-p's in my time.
For anxiety and sleep among other things.