I don't really have much emotion. I was married, but i've never been in love, just infatuation. No one understands what i'm going through. No one to talk to. I can't even bring a tear without staring into the sun or poking myself in the eye. The only thing here is emptiness. I think this is one of the hardest symptoms of my schizophrenia to deal with. Not because I care, but because I know i'm supposed too. And i'm tired of having to pretend all the time.