Well first I must say I am sorry it has been a few since I have posted and I hope everyone is doing well, or at least maintaining. I dont really know how I feel anymore and I suppose that's why I havent been posting.

For the last week I have been hiding out at my friends apt not doing anything but laying on the couch watching tv and self medicating. My life has ground to a halt and more than ever I feel like nothing matters, esp me. Plus today marks day one of my least favorite month, I wish I could just go away....