[If something is wrong with me, they really don't care. I mean really. They get mad at me of I have a problem. If I call and talk to my mom about it and it upsets her, then my dad gets angry with me because I upset her with my problem.]

I suggest you stop telling them your problems then. It is futile to make them care about you. They didn't care when you were a child, so what makes you think they will do so now? I'm not saying this to be mean or rude, but I've been there with a mother who even today tries to slam me every chance she gets. I am fortunate that she lives 1000's of miles away and we talk by telephone only. I haven't seen her for like 12 years, and totally happy with that.

Your only concern is your own family, hubby and kids, and making sure they aren't exposed to the hell you were.

I'm not sure how many of you folks on this board read the resource articles, but I found the book that with repeated readings will prove to be my saving grace. Dr Missildine's 'Your Inner Child of the Past. I would suggest you get this from say, Amazon.com, it's cheap, because it's older, but I was reading an article in The Observer (UK) about teen mothers/parents, raising aggressive children. It ties in the the thinking of Dr Missildine and how we react to abuse, whether it looks like it or not from the outside. If we experience a loveless childhood, we grow into adults unable to cope with life in a healthy way.