Seems as if my depression is coming back. I have been in excruciating pain for almost 3 weeks now. I have a bunch of things wrong with my spine (whole story in the chronic pain forum) and no doc wants to help. I fought and fought for almost a year to see a neuro doc. Seen him to day, he kept going on and on about how big I was (I'm 230) and not going on about how bad it was for me (he actually at one time said "jeez that huge") he did'nt want to touch me and the one time he did he kept wiping his hands on his pants like he touched something gross. Then he took my x-ray reports and marked all kinds of stuff out with a sharpie. And told me I had whiplash (again it's in the chronic pain section on what my report says) He asked me if I had gained weight on my Celexa, I told him no before my wreck I weighed 145 pounds and he told me at 145 I would still have been 50 pounds overweight. WTH? I'm 5 foot 5 inches. 90 pounds is'nt my ideal weight. 135 is. He just made me feel less than. Like cause I am big I am disgusting. No one can help my physical pain well they can but they won't. Ughh I'm so over this......I'm so pissed off and sad