BNLsMOM, hang in there. I am so glad you talked to your T about this and that you are seeing how this might be playing along with the illness. And please, please, please don't apologize for feeling badly. Those of us who know whatyou have had to go through with this disease are never going to think that you are a failure because it recurrs. You have a tough row to hoe, and you do the best you can. Please don't apologize dear. HUGGGGGSSSSSSSS