This is the hardest for me to.I want to feel but it's just not there.The only feelings I have are 1st and foremost loneliness.It gets unbearable at times.No matter who's around.I guess because I've been alienated for so long and then that pisses me off.2nd anger or even rage,I actually feel better when I'm pissed off.I'm a musician and every once in awhile,(about every 6 months) I shed a tear if I play something very well and people don't notice that it took everything to pull it off and it was executed perfectly.It's like they talk about feelings but yet they really don't have any all I see is false pride , vanity , jealousy and manipulation.Which is Ok and kinda funny because It pisses me off and I feel better knowing I don't share the same 'feelings" I see there behavior as narcissistic at best.I also feel your pain or lack of or what ever we should call it. It's a lonely place that only we understand.Try to feel better knowing your not alone