at one point I was very suicidal and so I spent alot of time in my mental safe place called la la land. I would come back from la la land only to be with my therapist. Sometimes I would ask her what it is like when Im not there and she told me pretty much no different since all the peieces of memories are about me and my life no one can tell the difference. There is nothing wrong with no one knowing the difference in fact they are not supposed to. I made a sacastic remark that maybe I'll just stay in la la land for the rest of my life then that way I don't have to think about living without my son, Just let the memory peices take over forever. My therapist laughed and told me to go ahead and try it. Its physically and mentally impossible, one of those over dramatized myths of DID. Just like when my brain matches triggers to to the memories to know which memory piece to rerun when I get triggered It also knows when not to run them too when there is no trigger factor. and to prove it she reminded me that I haven't missed an appointment with her yet. My brain knows I am safe with her so doesnt rerun memory pieces when I come to see her unless we are talking about some triggering stuff. When its safe nothing can stop the person from returning.
She'll come back when she feels safe. In the meantime her therapist should know she has gone inside so she can help you find out what the trigger is that is keeping her from feeling safe.
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