Hey, i need to share this. Blood and tears, thats how i define borderline... i do have, but how do you know if you do? You need a professional to diagnose but sometimes, even after years in psichiatrist, hospitals and experts, they arent able to notice its about bordeline deal. Lots of people who suffers from it (like me) also are depressive, suicidals, do self injury, impulsive, agressive, has self identity disturbance, and a lot of other horrible disturbs. A lot of people like us kill themselves, or are in hospitals or in jails, .. every person reacts differently in some aspects... biggest concern for me is, people die at early age, and thats what i fear for myself and everyone in this conditions.

My impulsive behavior put my life in dangerous several times, not only the suicide attempts with pills, drugs cocktails, chemical intoxication but also a disgusting sexual addiction, putting myself in a vulnerable condition to STD or even AIDS. Thanks God i havent been affected for those even worst diseases, but time made my family go away from me.. i was treating them with so much violence, and there was reasons, i was adopted, rejected and had some negligence from parents.. even worst, a sexual abuse situation at age 8. Its not easy, life isnt pretty all the time. So dont blame our behavior, its not right but theres always a reason, i dont belive a child was created by God to do bad things,

By the grace of God i still alive.. life wasnt easy but cant complain, with all the hard stuff came maturity, better decisions, and finally breaking my silence. Why? Because i WANT TO LIVE!!! And also dont want to see other young people doing the same i did, somethings you can learn with others, and im here to embrace, and also to get support... from deep inside of my heart, God bless us..

Love,
Caroline