Dont do that to yourself. I know it is hard and I know you feel like giving up and not having anything to do with others. But there are good people out there that do care. And you came to the right place because we do care. I guess in some ways I feel the same about others who I thought care always putting you down or me down and picking on things you do or want to do or what you have. It is like they are out to get you. So I know how you feel and it hurts and makes you feel like no one cares. I have a family like that and some friends too. It is like you are a bother or buging them. I feel like that too. I know you are trying your best but like someone said to me. You only worry about yourself and please yourself. And if those dont like it that is too bad for them because you are doing it for yourself not for them. I have to do the same thing too. It will be hard but you just hang in there and remember that we are here for you ok.