Well I am inpressed Ascin and Darkeyes. Your posts rock because it's been exactly what I have been looking for at this site, some people that I can relate to in a very major way. Thanks for being outwright with why you guys are suicidal, its a breath of fresh air compared to all the covering up horse [censored] that I have seen here. Ascin you put it best by saying "It gives me a little outlet for my darkside". I do like that about this site. More often than not I can speak my mind here without someone ridiculing me for being to descriptive or so negative or whatever their problem may be with me.

I am house sitting at the most amazing house this week and I am having the time of my life but what I realize though is that no amount of money or distractions can take the problems away. I still feel like dying and I have been doing all the things I love... Playing soccer, coming home and having a shower... then relaxing on these leather couches watching a 54 inch TV. Problem is there are moments when nothing goes on and depression hits me up side the head and reminds me "Hey kid your [censored] up... there's a knife in the kitchen go cut yourself".

Anyway thanks for your two cents Darkeyes and Ascin for your opinion and thoughts as well.

Talk to you soon.

Ian

Death Calls Us All, How Long We Prolong It Is Our Choice