Wow Googley,

I can really relate. The other day I told T that I hadn't checked my bank account for 2 weeks, so don't ask. Then I had to sob for more time than I wanted.

But, no it is not selfish at all to ask for what you paid before, even less. That is what a sliding scale is for and you are doing this as a form of self-care to lessen your anxiety. Just talking about money in therapy is brave. I'd say stick to your guns! Something like,

"Here is what I can pay." (Amount you truly feel comfortable with)
"I sincerely hope that this amount will work for you as meeting with you is very important to me and I don't want to have to skip sessions if I can possibly avoid it."

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