just need to vent

i am so terrified of every single thing

life scares me death scares me aging scares me

i am so depressed

none of this can ever get better

i am a useless mother, pathetic

i try so hard but i just keep getting shot down

I wish my ex husband wasnt so evil

he smashed all my dreams and sense of security and safety and he still terrorizes me

i have no hope

i am a failure to my kids and everyone

I feel so threatened and unsafe every second