My H wants to know how my T is going to help me stop my pattern. He says that I'm getting what I want from her, so why would I want to quit? Just like with the other Ts. Maybe it's like someone posted to me, I think on PC, about putting an alcoholic in a liquor store.

I emailed my T about this right now. I said maybe the touching is wrong because it feels good, and told her my H's concerns. Now I feel so guilty about feeling good in therapy. But T is trying to help me to have those good feelings inside of me. She wants it to be about my RL, not about her. But I'm lacking something inside of me to do that, or I wouldn't have this pattern at all.

I feel so confused and upset now! I feel like a lot of people on PC side with my H and think I'm just like an alcoholic. But I trust my T. I hope she has something helpful to say when she emails me back.