((( Rainbow )))

It's difficult to feel so confused about a situation - and then get feedback that covers all different views....

I am glad you reached out to T about it, because ultimately she may be able to put your mind at ease and go with the flow.

I know it's hard to imagine that the feelings you have with T will change and that you will be able to internalize the caring, nurturing or have the ability to find that outside of T....but perhaps this is the route to getting those needs met and learning how to get it elsewhere....