((((dps))))) I can empathize with your description - for me it feels like I'm drowning in the emotions - and they come in waves. I am working on mindfulness, meditation in therapy to be better able to handle them and to understand the emotions - tease out what they are, describe them, and hopefully understand where they come from but I'm only at the beginning and it is really hard work. JD, geez and shezbut all have really good suggestions for you (and me too!).

Take care of yourself, dps - you are a beacon of hope to me - I thank you for all that you do and the support you have shown me.