before i start i just actually wrote this out and pressed the back button by accident and deleted it. Duhhh.

Ive come on here because i wanted some support off women who may be going through the same thing.
Here goes...

When i was 16, i was diagnosed with Pelvic Inflammatory Disease (PID), due to a very bad experience with an ex who ended up sleeping around, giving me chlamydia and not telling me for SIX MONTHS. The infection spreaded to my pelvis as had been left untreated, and i ended up quite damaged, on alot of medication and very ill for a while (I found all this out on my actual birthday, also valentines day, the same day i found out he'd been sleeping with a friend AND he was moving his 'real' girlfriend in the next day). Not that you needed to know that, im just still a bit bitter about the situation! It affected everything.

Fast forward a few years later into the present.

Me and my darling boyfriend of almost three years now, have decided to try for a baby, however, its not going really well. During the past few years, ive been admitted into hospital a fair few times with crippling lower abdominal pain, which gets so severe that im doubled over and cant move my legs, for fear of passing out. Sometimes (about once/a few times every1-2 weeks), its just painful twinges that last a split second, which come and go. I can just about handle that. Other times im not so lucky, and the pain can be constant lasting a good few hours.

Doctors in the emergency departments have tried passing it off as water infections, or in one other case, bad bowel movements. Although this may have been the case at the time, i have tried to explain to doctors that the problems have only triggered the pain off, and not been the primary CAUSE of the pain. No one ever listened and they just passed me off with some painkillers and told me to stop wingeing.

A recent doctor i went to, however, actually listened to me with genuine concern and took action. He told me i was right to complain about this pain ive been putting up with for years now, and it does seem like the pid is connected to it. I explained in detail every hospital admission, and how severely unbearable it gets for me sometimes to feel it. He sent me for a smear test, as I am also at risk of the PID infection coming back once ive had it once, which was clear. Ive been refered for an ultrasound scan in a few weeks, to check for scarring and damage of the fallopian tubes and womb.

I am SO scared. PID is highly linked with infertility and other problems such as eptopic pregnancies. Im scared that they will turn around and tell me that im so badly damaged (i got told that i might have problems in the future when i was diagnosed, as it had been remained untreated for quite some time), and that i will struggle with trying, or will not be able to have babies all together. Its been quite hard for me to cope with these past few months, really been taking the effect on my stress levels. Whenever i find out that it 'didnt work this time', that i am not pregnant, and i come on my time of the month, i lay in bed all week crying my eyes out. It freaks me out that i feel like the blood i pass through is my 'could-have-been' baby. I get so depressed.
I was just wondering if there is anyone on here who has experienced PID, or other fertility problems? I could really use some moral support right now, as this has been tearing me up for months.

I need a shoulder to cry on, because im terrified.
Thankyou for listening, and those that are a bit lost, i suggest you google 'pelvic inflammatory disease!'

Sorry to babble on, love
BabyG xXxXxXx