Jiakhan, just realizing WHY you re isolating is a big step. Hang in there. When depression gets going, it gets a life of it's own, and no amount of rational arguing will drive it back completely, especially from our end, undfortuantely. That's why you really need to so a therapist and get in contact with a P-doc.

Hon, the psychs are just people. They have their own personalities and values, and though they try very hard not to let that influence how they act, it's part of who they are. That's why it's OK to try not just one, but several therapists before you find one you "click" with. It's just like anyone else.

I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time. HUGGGGSSSS and keep writing in, OK?