Death is never better for the people who love and care about you. You matter in this world, and I bet you have touched people's lives in ways you never even realized. the best advice I've ever gotten was "you can't solve 100 problems at once, concentrate on one at a time." The second best was, "if you don't like your life, change it." Where do you start? Start with realizing you're human - which means you make mistakes and aren't perfect. It took me until I was 25 to learn to like myself inspite of myself. The first step was knowing that I TRY to be the best person I can be. The second was trying not to keep making the same mistakes over and over again by finding the reason I was making them in the first place. Ask yourself what's missing in your life, in you, and find a better way to try and meet those needs. I wish you much luck and love on your road to peace and happiness.