Geez, it doesn't happen all at once! You are getting closer to acknowledging and naming your feelings and working hard to do so! Look how disappointed you are that the process isn't faster.

Don't be afraid or worry about your T's feelings You're supposed to be working on yours; your T will let you know if she sees a problem with your work; sounds like she is being helpful (pointing out that "talking" doesn't seem to be helping you work with them and suggesting painting them) and is in the struggle with you (if you're frustrated, you want T to be frustrated too, you're in this together!).

Hard struggling is good! Think about what's "easy" and how important/worth it is in the end? It's easy to work all day and make $50 but much harder to figure out how to make $1,000? You and your feelings sound worth the struggle!