Well I feel like Sh it today.... Was staying at my friends house who just happens to be an x of my x and my x manages the apt bldg, she insisted that I leave or he pay a fine for having me there and she get a restraining order to keep me away from the bldg (I didnt do ANYTHING to provoke this, it was completely out of the blue)... Needless to say I had to leave. He doesnt seem to care as if he wanted he could talk to the owner and get it ok'd or something of the sort, he just says "sorry doll, what do you want me to say?" I am so tired of being the least important thing in this world... I am tired of being in this world. Even whey I try to make it be ok and exist and strive for some sense of control over my mental issues something comes along to say hey wake up dumbass you aint worth sh it so go ahead and die already!